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into the light |
stephen040670
Date:
2008-04-07
Time: 11:40:14
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3 years ago just before i was sectioned in a
mental hospital, my mind was litrally
crashing like a pc woulld do, during this i
had an out of body experience, i saw my self
being shoved forcefully into a police cell ,
and then i had an inner mind experience
hovering over a void of nothingness,
technically my mind gave up i was dying but
was not affaid so i quit and tried to enter
the void, but strong forces pulled me back
has my concious mind rebooted, there was no
light, i was taken to hospital in london from
p/boro with police in the ambulance, i kept
on leaving my body most of the way to london
viewing the amulance from the air, i had many
self inflicted wounds trying to understand
the difference between faith and logic, i
had committed no crime they never stoped me
from hurting myself, i could not stop hurting
myself trying to understand faith, i think i
have offended a powerfull entity, and im
still paying for it, i wont take my own life,
but i know i will suffer, maybe for eternity,
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Re: into the light |
lil_red_gem
Date:
2008-04-07
Time: 11:48:29
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I don't believe that you will suffer for an
eternity sweets.
We are here to learn, but sometimes there are
things that we will never understand, and for
some, it is difficult to just push what we
don't understand aside, and just accept what
is. And if you can't push it aside, you will
be tormented by it.
But not understanding something is not
punishable. As humans we are all flawed, and
the expectation to conform, or be normal can
be a little too much.
But what is normal?
There are varying degrees of normality.
I'd rather be unique anyday.  |
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Re: into the light |
stephen040670
Date:
2008-04-07
Time: 12:08:22
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i learned painfully in those few weeks that
where only biolgical machines, a little more
advanced, i just existed with out a
personality, understanding that we are just
advanced technology, what i saw with my minds
eye, was the truth and not a delusion, i will
never forget, there is no distraction in this
life that will ever change that, the
government choose to ignore people like me,
and just dope them up, because our words can
be dangerous, im not affaid anymore death is
just part of another journey, and i will
speak about a room i was held in, with
technology for bringing people with a
psycosis down from their delusion, i saw the
future and the pupose of mankind, but i cant
explain in words what i have seen, the more i
try the obsticals get tougher, they watched
me harm my self through a glass mirror i herd
them laughing, i did not think that technolgy
existed in that cell, |
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Re: into the light |
lil_red_gem
Date:
2008-04-07
Time: 12:18:17
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Well, one step at a time Stephen.
Life is full of risks and eventualities, but
yes, it is to be lived.
We still have to carry on.
Try to keep hold of your new little bit of
positivity, and maybe you will be able to
even build on it a little.
Just don't get cross if you feel that things
aren't the way you want - sometimes we take 2
steps forward just to take one step backward.
But we are still moving forward!! |
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Re: into the light |
lil_red_gem
Date:
2008-04-07
Time: 12:40:40
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I tell you, i have tried meditating and i can
never clear my head of the junk.
Infact, i'm sure my brain never stops ever!
Charly, how do you clear your head of though? |
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Re: into the light |
stephen040670
Date:
2008-04-08
Time: 14:32:41
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had too much to drink last night, not very
wise when i take vallium aswell, woke up on
my sofa cuddled up to my quitar, must have
thought it was a woman, and it was still in
tune lol |
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Re: into the light |
lil_red_gem
Date:
2008-04-08
Time: 14:35:42
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Don't worry Stephen, i cuddle a teddy every
night - and yes, it is odd for a grown woman,
but my arms feel so empty with nothing to
hold.
At least the guitar is more like the right
size and shape!! lol |
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Re: into the light |
stephen040670
Date:
2008-04-08
Time: 14:40:59
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i started to collect teddys, had loads but i
gave them away, i don,t normally cuddle up
too my quitar, but your quite rite it does
resemble a little lady, plus it,s 20 years
old so i won,t get into trouble for it lol |
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